where im from final draft

`Where im from…
I am from the inside of Keasia’s womb
I came out in the year of 95. They say life is something you cant buy.
So many people die, like my great aunt and my cousin that I never heard cry.
I am from a 3 bedroom apartment.
The den isn’t my real “living room,” my room is my living room even though half the time I don’t feel like I’m alive.
I am from my brother secretly depriving on my depression and
my mom consistantly cries
jasmens far but of course she tries and on the darkess days she make me smile
the sun shines with misters bright eyes
and I want them to know, their memories even when the sun shines
I am from looking out the window and wondering what the real “project” about the projects are bringing to the world,
other then babies having babies and killing wives
over drug money and money for drugs,
but my mind fully escapes when I open the gates
to truth.
I swear to tell the truth nothing but the truth in a court of law raising my right hand to tell it all
about how my father use to leave me with my step brother and and how he use to close the door
it still hurts my mothers inner core
but like everything else that fails in my life
I am from ,brush it off and head for the door.

inspired by "the edge is where i wanna be "

so today in class i was reading a poem called “the edge is where i wanna be” it sorta reminded me of you, and how you don’t wanna lived the live everyone else did before u. its basically a fall to u, like laying on an entwining string that’s slowly coming apart. whats the use? why does it exist if its like all the rest? but looking at the truer sense of what I’m saying or the underlying truth really makes you question further. so when i was reading the poem one of the stanza’s really caught my eye
“you’re sleepwalking through been there done that you’re stuck watching reruns of somebody else’s life”
and it made me think,that yeah; your going threw an everyday “normal” life someones already lived .
so why not do something significant for once? to inspire others like you’ve inspired me or just do it for you? not just to get by but to thrive in stability, find middle ground on that so called edge and stay constantly content with every regret( much rather) or decision you make in every waking moment of the rest of your life. An i know macks that u wanna be that significant other because if you don’t make a mark in your existence then you wouldn’t find a point in wake up everyday to be the person that’s “sleep walking through been there done that”
honestly macks u shouldn’t be that person, for one thing your capable of so much more even if you don’t see it and another is because anyone who’s loves u enough should not want you to settle with settling only to get an outcome of experiences that’s been experienced. you deserve more, and can do allot better